MISSING HIM ALREADY!!

This is very super annoying..
i am really trying my super best not to fall for him but this kind of feelings can't be helped..
ytd fight big time coz of some misunderstanding and i can't believe i cried abt it..
den thank god when i met him, he was feeling so much better..
i only get a chance to talk to him for like an hr..
i was with falah and him inside sc rm..
den like i can't even have an alone time with him..
i really tak nak fall in love with him coz i noe this is a one way feeling..
i noe he doesn't have any feelings for me..
nth more than just a friend..
i hate myself for falling for him..
i dun want to find myself in the same situation again..
he hasn't called or msg me for like forever i think..
msg him, he doesn't noe how to reply back..
i dunno wad's wrong with his brain of his sometimes..
maybe wad brahim said is true..
he cares for me but just as a freind nth more than tt..
like he is so stuipd, he didn't even take the hints of me wanting to meet him just now..
hang up the stupid phone so fast..
after a very long time, i had one stick for myself..
it felt so good..
but he doesn't noe tt..
bet he wun be bother if i even took it..
fuck la..
i noe he will enjoy himself over there when me here is stuck at hm thinking abt him and worrying for his safety..
well, i hope things turn out for the better..
I AM SO GONNA MISS U ALOT..
MISS U!!
MUACKZ!!